tonight after dinner me and christopher slow danced in our kitchen

as bon iver sang to us through our record player

i looked up at him, and whispered ' we're having a child together'

and he responded with a smile on his face, 'this is our life and i am so happy'

mama's day.

this was my first mama's day and i was on the moon! i woke up so happy and encouraged, my smile didn't leave my face all day. there was a homemade card and a little love letter (my absolute favorite!) from my husband. fox in socks, my all time favorite dr.seuss book, not to mention a couple of other cute little books for me and the little bird. a beautiful fern. a lovely hope chest from my own sweet mama, who came down from austin to visit for the weekend.and a yummy thoughtful dinner cooked by my lovely husband for me and my mama. it was such a lovely sunday.

right now, my little bird is safely tucked on the inside, and i cannot even begin to fathom what it really means to be a mother. sometimes the thought of becoming a mother scares me, but mostly it excites me and encourages me to daily surrender to my creator. resting in the knowledge that he is leading me through this journey, and he desires even greater things for me that i could never think up or even imagine for myself. we may not have everything figured out, and we may not be abounding in what the world would consider riches, but we are overflowing in the things that matter: love, joy, mercy, and more adventure in our spirits than most have in their pinky. our hearts are open and willing to what the creator has for us through this season of stepping into parenthood.

happy mother's day to my sweet mama, the mama that raised my fun-loving, generous, kind, and handsome husband, and to all the mother's out there who are an encouragement to me!

love,
meg

jazz festival

i love the jazz festival, every april we head out to quakertown park with friends to check out the amazing music, art, and food booths. some of my favorites include the kiddie choirs. so.stinking.cute. and to support local artists, the pottery is always my favorite - and every year i always ask christopher if we can get another salt&pepper shaker set to add to my collection.i can't help but love handmade things.

this was my first year attending as a mama to be (23 weeks here) and i couldn't help but think, next year there will be a little one with us. i am in such anticipation of our little bird's arrival. and cannot wait to bring him or her along with us, to all of our favorite places and let them in on our secret spaces.

love,
meg

working with a bump, 20 weeks

19 weeks and four days.

                                                                                           
I had my first midwife appointment and ultra-sound (on april fools day), it was also the first time i have ever had my blood taken ( i don't do needles very well at all), so afterwards i was feeling like quite the brave one!
roberta (she is actually in midwifery training and doing her residency at Inanna) was very sweet, patient, and not to mention very gentle with me through the whole process, she was so lovely and will make an exceptional midwife! i am actually kind of saddened that she will be gone in 6 weeks.
i am very excited about giving birth at Inanna (and trying a water birth!). all of the midwifes are also certified nurses and have tons of experience with births ranging from in hospital, to home, and in birthing centers as well. i have such a powerful inner peace and confidence about the decision we have made to go the natural route.

i know it looks like i have a big bump going on, but that's partly the dress, because during my appointment my midwife mentioned that i was measuring  small to be 19 weeks (which had me a little concerned), but at the ultra-sound, my sweet baby is right on target for the weight and length, and she gave me the exact date of 19 weeks and four days. that was so comfortng and encouraging to hear, i know it may sound silly, but because i've been so small (and my hubs keeps asking 'when are you going to get a bump'?) i've been slightly fearful that something was wrong. but, my body is on the baby making train with no plans to detour until this litte gem is here, and for that i am thankful.

i can't even describe the emotions i felt when seeing our little baby bird so clearly, all of the fingers and toes developed, and the little butt, so so cute. it truly is an amazing feeling to know that i am not only growing a tiny little human, but also nurturing a soul. a being that will have a place in this world. it become so real. so very real. there is so much JOY in my heart because of what the Lord has so graciously given me.

love,
meg

a little bird on the way

                                                                       

dear baby bird,

your mama is so excited that you have made a little happy nest and i can't wait to have you in my arms. i keep dreaming of your face and wondering if you will have your papa's big blue eyes and dimples. knowing deep inside that your smile will melt my heart. as we are slowly collecting beautiful little things for you and creating a space for you, our hearts are growing as well, preparing us for a deep unchanging love. some days your mama is so giddy with joy at just the mere thought of you. there is a you. a beautiful little you. that is part me. and part your papa. i love you my little baby bird.

love,
your mama

a little love note

to my husband.